dear bie ,
do you think its easy to being me? do you think its easy putting on a act that i do everyday? i smile when all i want to do is cry. i laugh when all i want to do is die. i want to tell everyone how my world falls apart each night when i am laying in bed with tears in my eyes :'(. pleading with God to help me. huhhhh, i want to let everyone know what it is to be me, pretending to be happy, pretending to like myself. if it was up to me, i wouldn't be pretending, i would actually be happy. to bad is not :(